I let it go too long

I am love sick or lust sick or bored sick or "What was I thinking?" sick or "What am I thinking?" sick. It is a sick and sickening sickness. It was supposed to be funny and last a week. It's been a month. It hasn't gone away. But it's been so long that I've had this sickness that makes everything so much more MORE. I don't want it to go away. But I hate it all the same.